My baby shower

It's 3:30 in the morning and I just can't sleep! I went to bed early last night because I didn't sleep well the night before. I woke up at 2:20 and just couldn't put myself to sleep again. I have been like this for several days now. It's not fun to have trouble sleeping when you really need it the most.

I had my baby shower last Saturday and it went really good. It was a fun girlie get-together. Here are some of the pictures I took that day. I made everything myself including the invitations, the baby favors, and the cake! Thanks to all my friends who joined me that day. It was so special!

 Baby favors

 The cake

Some of the gifts

What is a Midlife Crisis?

I was talking to my husband the other day and the phrase "Midlife Crisis" came by. We were talking about how some people change their life in a dramatic way sometime as they get older. Ridiculously, I sometimes use this word whenever I see a mid-age person does something to look younger, i.e. shaving his mustache, having a Botox, ..., etc. However, it's more serious than that!! The following is what I found online about the midlife crisis. I found it interesting since my husband and I are in our thirties!!! Thankfully, my husband is still growing a light beard and I have not done any Botox yet :)

Note: Don't forget to check the list above. My answers were "YES" to all of them except the Harley Davidson one ;)

"A midlife crisis is experienced between the ages of 40 and 60. It was first identified by the psychologist Carl Jung and is a normal part of the maturing process. Most people will experience some form of emotional transition during that time of life. A transition that might cause you to take stock in where you are in life and make some needed adjustments to the way you live your life. Most seem to come through the process smoothly without making major life changes.

For some, a midlife crisis is more complicated. It can be an uncomfortable time emotionally which can lead to depression and the need for psychotherapy. Those who have a hard time with this transitional stage might experience a range of feelings such as:

• Unhappiness with life and the lifestyle that may have provided them with happiness for many years.
• Boredom with people and things that may have been of interest to them before.
• Feeling a need for adventure and change.
• Questioning the choices, they have made in their lives and the validity of decisions they made years before.
• Confusion about who they are and where they are going.
• Anger at their spouse and blame for feeling tied down.
• Unable to make decisions about where they want to go with their life.
• Doubt that they ever loved their spouse and resentment over the marriage.
• A desire for a new and passionate, intimate relationship. 

Most people who have a difficult time during midlife and go into crisis mode do so because of external factors. They may be experiencing stress in their life that makes the transition more difficult or they may have childhood issue that were never dealt with that come to the surface during this time."

Routine is back...

to our life after a busy Ramadan and a joyous Eid, el7amdellah. I always feel sad when Ramadan ends regardless of all the stress we go under in the holy month here in the states. May Allah give us the opportunity to be present for next Ramadan.

Our Eid was really good. We went to the prayer in the morning and then had breakfast there at the Masjid. We then headed home to call family and friends. After getting some rest, we went to one of our favorite places that we really miss in Ramadan, Barnes and Noble. At dinner time we went with our friends to a Mexican restaurant before heading to their house to have some tea. It was a fun and busy day!

On the second day of Eid we went to Sesame place amusement park with our friends. We spent the whole day there where the girls had so much fun. On Sunday, the last day of Eid, the girls went with their dad and bought their Eid's gift, a Wii. They used the money they got as a gift on Eid (3eedeyeh) to buy it. We spent the day playing with it. It's really cool :) 

I'm really happy that we were able to make the Eid joyous and fun for the girls!

I'm right now craving Turkish coffee!!! I'm trying to cut on caffeine when I'm pregnant but I sometimes can't. I guess as soon as I finish this post I will be fixing myself some and enjoy it with some of the dark chocolate I got from Belgium. Yes, these chocolate my husband got for me from Belgium. They are really yummy and irresistible. I also got a Lancome makeup palette, and the girls got stuffed bunnies. I just love gifts, who does not ? ;)

Thanks honey!

With less than 4 weeks to go, I'm really busy getting ready for delivery. I have too many things to do in the coming few weeks just like painting the baby's room, getting the furniture in it, hospital registration, and much much more. By the way, last week I bought this cute diaper bag. I really love it :)

That's it for now. Keep tuned for updates :)

Eid Mubarak

Eid Al-Fitr is tomorrow in most Muslim countries. In this occasion I wish all Muslims worldwide a blessed and peaceful Eid. May Allah accept our good deeds and ease the suffering of all people around the globe.

In four years..

Good morning,

I'm so sleepy this morning. I don't get enough sleep at all these days. Anyway, I hope I will get better sleep in the week left of Ramadan. My husband is coming today, and I guess him being away is one of the reasons that I can't sleep well during the night. Also, this weekend will be a long one due to Labor Day on Monday which means I can stay longer in bed in the morning :)

  
Following Wafa' s tag (I know this is kind of late), here are some of the things that I hope to happen to me in the coming four years:

1. Where do I want to be in four years? 

Absolutely in Amman! I hope we will be back home by then, settled down in our own house.

I can't deny that I love it her in the US, and that I have too many friends here, but I just can't imagine myself and my family living here forever. We have to go back home someday, and if we have to, it should be sooner while the kids are young enough to adjust to life there. I don't want it to be hard on them which will be so hard on us too. I want my kids to raise in a normal way without thinking or feeling different. My first priority is to raise them in a right Islamic way. Many will say that I can do that here, I know, but that will put too much pressure on them and me.  

2. What do I hope to happen in four years? 

I hope to be a better Muslim. I just wish I can do something good for Islam, anything! I always wish to give a good impression of Islam and a bright picture for a Muslim woman because this could be a call "Da3wa" to Islam. 

I also wish we will be able to go Omra with the girls. My husband and I have been blessed by doing Hajj last year. However, it was too crowded to enjoy both Harams. So we decided, inshallah, to go there again for Omra and to take the girls with us so we all enjoy worshiping there.

3. I hope to have a good job in four years. Maybe be a teaching position at a good university (assuming I will be done with my PhD degree by then)! I also hope to run my own business on the side. A business that is related to something I like, for example Hijab fashion, cooking, home decor, or all together! Big dreams, I know :)

4. Finally, as Wafa' mentioned, I just hope my family and I will be in a better place, emotionally and financially.  

I also wish to love and be loved more :)